SHELTER IN PLACE

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The world is entangled in battle
and finally united: eye-level shelves
are empty, television is on nonstop, we
can’t hug. Every check-out station
is guarded like a salad bar. Our cash
and bags are held with gloves.
Our brains are jammed, stuck
in a whirling wind of images:
On a stanchioned city block,
masked people huddle outside
the hospital. A stern newscaster terms
the troubles. I can’t turn him off.
I’d rather listen while I think alone
in the quiet. Quiet now is less unsettling
than the sounds of a family walking
the dog along the neighbors’ fence,
the neighbors’ dog barking,
a freed-from-winter revving engine,
laughter. Aren’t we to self-contain?
Aren’t we to shelter? Aren’t we
going to be okay? A rising politician
warns and soothes us: Our closeness
makes us vulnerable. But our closeness
is what makes us special, connected,
human, community. I return a call
from last week, back in time to an old
world of planning to plant trees
at my new home, investing. I hardly
expect an answer — is landscaping
essential? — but the design is ready:
My backyard with a few more trees,
more privacy — an idea I’ve guarded
my whole life now changed
by infection and loneliness, by distance,
by density. Just weeks ago, I thought
broadly of the trees as screen —
from walkers, joggers, cyclists, car
passengers — A silver lining, now,
to think more intricately, to foresee
the branches, bark, flowers, leaves.

 
-Laura Scheffler Morgan 3/27/20

 

 

IF ONLY I COULD ACT THAT WAY

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In the supermarket, a toddler
in ephemeral anguish
screams, disrupts my hasty
produce- taking. One need —
a sip of juice, a cookie,
an anything. Fix this mess,
the child pleads. One of us
could respond, I figure,
while I hold a not-ripe avocado.
Recognize the genuine child,
forget yielding, grow replete.

 

— This is a poem I wrote a ton of time ago that tonight I revised. The photo of me and Ellie probably doesn’t exactly go with the poem, but that’s okay, too, because it also, kind of, does.  Also, I’ve been taking this blog, or anything, too seriously which means things need to be perfect which they’ll never be which means I don’t post anything which means I’m not as happy as I could be which is foolish.

DECIDING WHAT TO MAKE FOR DINNER

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DECIDING WHAT TO MAKE FOR DINNER

The olive oil warms,
spreading light then receding
into a black-bright border,
a continent, into rivers,
into one river. Now
I hardly know what the oil
is for. Garlic, usually,
but tonight, what then?
I’m absorbed in the world
of the pan, a world within
me, imagined geography.
This time, a country hill.
English, overgrown, citric
fluorescence against dooming
midday dark — a memory.
I was sixteen; I’ve lived three
decades, many lives, since.
How does a place retain
such inhabitance? I have
vastly changed; I’ve stayed
the same. Still, in my sunlit
kitchen, in the middle
of Missouri, the Midwest,
America, over an ocean
away, as I weave a wooden
spoon-oar through warmed
oil — as I decide how to feed
myself — this scene some form
of me didn’t leave is what I see.
I’m not there — but I am
more than anything is. Subtle
or extreme, now I’ll play
the Atmosphere, Weather.
What happens next is everything.

 
-Laura Scheffler Morgan, 6-14-19 – 7/25/19